Friendship, probably what I most value in human relations.
I do have a weird “karma” about everything in my life, all happens for a short period of time and leave forever, which is the only thing that really seems to last it's the leave forever part .
Doesn’t matter who left who or what, only one thing is for sure, even those best friends that for any reason or circumstance are out of my life and me from theirs, are still friends if any emergency comes up we know we can count on each other always.
Sometimes best friends are the 1st to hurt you deep in your heart because you are not prepared to defend against those you could give your life for, that’s how I live my friendships.
I’m sure at some point I was not the perfect friend or who knows even did some damage too, but no doubt it was unintentional.
I don’t ever expect to find my other half in a friendship, as some people say about meeting someone to love, so I have always the hope they will have the same code as I do and not to be as I want them to be, just a code of how 2 people should respect and help one another, share and create a strong bond only breakable by death.
Life does not work as we want, and it’s very easy to find “friends” who will hurt you naturally because as they say, you are supposed to take it, after all you said you were their friend, so nothing is more important even when they run you over without looking twice.
Very confusing to me being hurt by those I would give my life for, hurting me every time they have a bad day or are frustrated with their lives. It seems like friends have to be a bag of sand to be punched around and take it as if it’s only natural to take other’s pain and anger almost as your responsibility to deal with it and very offensive to say you don’t want to or don’t like to be hurt by them.
I saw a Chef on a TV show, inviting all her friends she has for most of her life, some for 20 years, one of her best friends know her since she was 3 years old! Wow, I feel very happy for her, she must feel warm inside, she must have a sense of belonging... I’m just guessing I have no idea what any of that means to a person, not mine to experience, just happens to those who were born to a quiet life… Not for me.
I still look at some things as King Kong looked at Empire State Building, wow what is that? Wonderful, so beautifully builted… I can only tell how I lived it not how it is supposed to be. Maybe I will never experience that, not in my path i guess.
I do have a weird “karma” about everything in my life, all happens for a short period of time and leave forever, which is the only thing that really seems to last it's the leave forever part .
Doesn’t matter who left who or what, only one thing is for sure, even those best friends that for any reason or circumstance are out of my life and me from theirs, are still friends if any emergency comes up we know we can count on each other always.
Sometimes best friends are the 1st to hurt you deep in your heart because you are not prepared to defend against those you could give your life for, that’s how I live my friendships.
I’m sure at some point I was not the perfect friend or who knows even did some damage too, but no doubt it was unintentional.
I don’t ever expect to find my other half in a friendship, as some people say about meeting someone to love, so I have always the hope they will have the same code as I do and not to be as I want them to be, just a code of how 2 people should respect and help one another, share and create a strong bond only breakable by death.
Life does not work as we want, and it’s very easy to find “friends” who will hurt you naturally because as they say, you are supposed to take it, after all you said you were their friend, so nothing is more important even when they run you over without looking twice.
Very confusing to me being hurt by those I would give my life for, hurting me every time they have a bad day or are frustrated with their lives. It seems like friends have to be a bag of sand to be punched around and take it as if it’s only natural to take other’s pain and anger almost as your responsibility to deal with it and very offensive to say you don’t want to or don’t like to be hurt by them.
I saw a Chef on a TV show, inviting all her friends she has for most of her life, some for 20 years, one of her best friends know her since she was 3 years old! Wow, I feel very happy for her, she must feel warm inside, she must have a sense of belonging... I’m just guessing I have no idea what any of that means to a person, not mine to experience, just happens to those who were born to a quiet life… Not for me.
I still look at some things as King Kong looked at Empire State Building, wow what is that? Wonderful, so beautifully builted… I can only tell how I lived it not how it is supposed to be. Maybe I will never experience that, not in my path i guess.
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